Still pregnant, this kid just does not wanna come out and play! Tomorrow I have yet ANOTHER doctors appointment, another NST and a decision of whether I will be induced on Tuesday night or Wednesday. At my appointment on Thursday, my doctor did a membrane sweep, but it didn't really do much. I've been losing hunks of my mucous plug (TMI I KNOW) and bleeding from it but nothing more. No contractions, or BH just uncomfortable pressure on BOTH ends (tall baby?) heart burn and an AWFUL backache. Hey,little guy, it's time to come out mommy daddy and all our friends and family want to meet you. And EVERYONE wants to know your name. :)

So my due date has come and gone and still no baby. I am MISERABLE. I am irritable and uncomfortable and soooo over it. I have turned into the crank of the century and everything and everyone seems to be getting on my last nerve. I feel terrible for being so cranky but I really just can't help it. I haven't been sleeping, and I have an achy back and I just can't help it I can't I am trying but I just can't. I have a doctors appointment today at 12:10 and they will be doing a non-stress test and we will talk to the doctor about when I am going to be induced (tomorrow would be good). Hopefully there will be some good news today. My bags are packed and I am ready to go. Ugh.

The end is near, supposedly... I'm worn out, and achy and just all over, completely and entirely done with this whole pregnant thing. I am 39 weeks as of Monday and i don"t think we will even be finishing this week. Just so everyone knows though, my mind has not come to terms with what comes at the end of this pregnancy. I know their is a baby in my belly, but no matter how many times I say it, the words I am going to be a MOM are just not sinking in. Mom? what is this MOM word people have been mention? I know I have a mom, an awesome mom. I know my sister is a mom. And my mom has a mom. But me? A mom? really? No way. It's not possible. I don't get it. Owell, time to get over it, because their is very little time left.

This morning I went to the annual mother's day brunch with my mom and my sister and all the other woman in my immediate family. It's always fun every year (granted I have never been more uncomfortable in my life1) and it's just a great way to bond. Afterwards me and my mom and my sister and my brother all went to the holmdel commons. We had some last minute things we had to pick up from ulta and bestbuy. I still have to straighten up my room and pack my bag, but everyone else is ready. John has a bag packed, the baby has his take home outfit ready, and we have a name picked out (even just in case it is a girl) but I am not prepared, mentally or physically. I am procrastinating even though I really shouldn't because guess what? I feel like crap, and I have since last night. I can't stand up for more then a few minutes, and its unbearable to walk, and my mom seems to be under the impression that this is beginning of labor (like she's done this before or something!?) So maybe no would be the best time to get all of these things out of the way. Well that's all for now, and I am can almost guarantee the next time I post I will be a MOM. See ya then!!