The love I have for my son is something I could never put into words. He is my life, my absolute everything. I could never imagine a day without seeing his face, and holding him close, and telling him how much I love him. I don't understand how anyone could go any amount of time willingly without seeing their child every second that they can. Today is a sad day for me. I am sad because as it seems things aren't turning out the way I hoped, but instead the way I expected. The way everyone assumed things would. What a bad day, good thing the sun is shining, and I have my baby's smile to cheer me up.