36 week appointment today! Where did the time go? I have 4 weeks left! Give or take some days. I'm really excited. :) I have been having alot of cramping lately, feels like I'm about to get my period some days. Everyone tells me thats normal, and the doctor said that its the cervix starting to thin out.

This past weekend (with help from John, Mom and Scott) I got my room organized, laundry somewhat done, and carpet shampooed all for little ******. Oh sorry we picked a name but I just can't tell anyone :) You can try and guess though, who-ever guesses right wins a prize! They get to spend the entire day with the baby when he gets here! Ahahha.

Today was kind of a lazy day. I woke up at like 20 after 10 because I just could not sleep last night in that hot heat. I got more done in my room and folded brochures for my mom. Then around 1:30 I went over John's and spent some time with him. We grabbed some lunch and then he came with me to the grocery store to help me pick out some steaks for dinner. I dropped him off at work at like 4 and then came home, watched some Judge Judy and made dinner. I made london broil and potatoes on the grill and some coleslaw from a bag. The london broil and potatoes games out excelent. The London Broil was a little under done but I though it was delicious. Definitely got my daily requirement of iron!! I am so stuffed. I think tonight I am going to go through all the baby clothes that are actually in my room and sort out all of the 0-3 months stuff and then pack everything else up into the attic.

This weekend is my baby shower and I am soooooo excited!

Today I went and played with Mckenna again with John. It was HIS idea to go down. I barely got to hold her! He was being a baby hog! :) I did get to feed her though, and then we changed a diaper together. I keep reminding him that shes not going to break (it was enough to get him to change her onsie by himself!!) and it made him realize it's not that scary.

He was also talking about how much he wanted to live with baby, which I completely understand and I typed up a budget to show him to see that we could probably move in by September with money saved up and that I could start work part time (15-20hrs) in October and take a few classes! I hope if I show him the numbers it'll show him that it's possible. Oh the stress of babies and money and only being 20. God only gives you what you can handle, right?

I'm 34 Weeks tomorrow. HOLY COW!? Where did the time go? Baby is running out of room for sure. My ribs on the left side are actually sore. I bet he's going to be tall like his Daddy. Mom got a crib (no mattress) and a changing table that is beautiful for a AMAZING price. It's used and looks like it's in MINT condition.

My attention span is to short. I'm done for now. GOODBYE!

I FINALLY FINISHED MY REGISTRY!

Babies"R"Us - Baby Registry


Not that it matters because I already have a ton of things for my little boy. But if anyone is curious here ya go. :)

So yesterday was tuesday and every tuesday after school I go to John/Chelsea's and make dinner or help make dinner and we watch the child birth DVD and then watch 16&preggo (yes the boys watch with us, and enjoy it). Last night though the show hit home a little and boy was I near tears. The girl lost her father years ago and she was speaking with her mom about how'd she'd give anything to have him there, to experience everything with her. It reminded me of how much I'd give anything to have my brother here and I ended up thinking about him the rest of the night, which ended up equalling NO sleep what so ever. But I'll survive. I know if Eric was here I probably wouldn't be pregnant. Or maybe I would. Only god knows. I do know that I would give anything to be able to tell Eric I'm pregnant. To see the look on his face (the are you effing kidding me look) and to hear what he would have to say about all of it (nothing nice i'm sure). I do know he would still support me and I know he would still love me, just as much as the rest of my family. It just makes me sad that I can't share this experience with him at all. My son will never meet his Uncle Eric, and my brother Eric will never get to meet my little boy. Its the hardest thing for me to think about, and more often then not just put it to the back of my mind so I don't have to hurt as much. I feel guilty that I do not think about Eric as much as I should. But when I do it just hurts. So I try really hard not to. Sometimes its hard, other times it easy.

i love Babies!

She kinda looks like John, is this a preview of what my baby might look like?

(with blue eyes and blonde hair of course though)
Today I'm at the real estate office working with my mom, bored as heck. I haven't really had the motivation or time to update my blog. I'm always to tired or busy. I'm 33 weeks as of today (7 weeks to go) and let me tell you, BOY am I over it! My sister-in-law (for all intense purposes) Jenn finally had HER little girl and it's making me itch to have this baby even sooner. I got to go play mommy all day yesterday and I loved every minute of it (even the crying and screaming and poopy diapers). I know it'll be different with my son, i'll be ten times more exhausted and i wont get to give him back and go home at the end of the day, but I'm still very excited. I love babies. And I KNOW I'm going to be infatuated with mine. :) John on the other hand is starting to worry me a little. His mom MADE him hold little Mckenna. It's like he's scared of her or something. Hardly goes near her or me for that matter when I'm holding her. Will that be different when it's his own son? He told me he had a dream that he picked up our baby and broke his back. I told him that he probably will have a hundred more dreams just like that until the baby comes and even worse ones when the baby is here, that he's just nervous. I have NO idea what to do.

Thursday, I got snowed in the house all day with my mom. We went through all the baby clothes and separated them into size and then put them in the attic and it has cleared up a lot of space in my room. Now I just need to clean off the weebly wobbly book case so I can take it out of my room.

Yesterday, after a bit of snow in the morning I escaped the house to go hang out with Chelsea and John at Chelsea's house. We all sat around in our PJs all day (everyone's work was canceled) and had a snow day together. And then for dinner we all went to the diner and got a ton of food(I'm pretty sure my waiter thought we were nuts). Afterwards we went back to the house and hung out. The boys played video games and me and Chelsea were doing everything we could think of to try and annoy them (that's what girls are for). It was a fun relaxing day. I hope everyone else had a fun snow day too.

Today I will be hanging out with Chelsea in the morning, for some desperately needed girl time. Then I hope to come home, work on my room some more and then around 4 John and all his roommates and I are going to a show that his roommate RJ is performing at. Hope it's not too loud for baby.